Him

So there was this guy and I let him in fast and I cared about him hard. And one day...he left.
There really aren't more details than that. One day he decided that he wouldn't answer the phone, he wouldn't call, text, or Facebook. He would walk out my life and not look back. And at first I was angry then I was nonchalant but now although it has been over a month I am honestly a little hurt.

How irrelevant, insufficient, and mediocre do I have to be to for someone to be able to walk out of my life like that? I don't say this because I want him back although I won't lie I miss how he made me feel. I just can't help but feel like I am some piece of scum at the bottom of someones shoe.

I want to make it clear that in no way I want him back because I know what I deserve. But it just seems to be clicking in my head how much, or how little he saw me as to dismiss me like that, and it hurts.

I know I am not a beauty queen. I am not the funniest, smartest, and I don't have the prettiest clothes but I have to be worth more than that! Am I not worth fighting for? I see these basic ass bitches, and sometimes less than basic, doing nothing their lives and they have these guys falling for them and I just don't get it. I work my ass off. I take care of myself. Yet no one NO ONE is man enough and simply be there. I don't ask for money I really don't ask for anything other than support and respect.

I know one day I will shake this feeling of nothingness but this week...this week...it really hurts!